can u love only me.

Do u know u are always on my mind and i am always thinking about u but i dont understand what u thinking at all do u know how much i hope i can be the only one u love? i can love u with everything i got but can u? i can promise to pay attention only to u but can u? i am always wondering am i the one u are thinking at night? The moment u wake up can i be the first guy that appear in your mind? how i wish there is someone out there who can really do this just for me. do u know how lonely i am? hais things always wont go the way i want it. fml

never ending suffering is all about me.

i thought i will never be back to blogging again but i think it would make me feel much more better than keeping all the things all by myself i am going crazy my heart is bleeding all the time and the pain is making me numb. This year so many things is just keep happening..... i am still having problems with my family. i am having problems with my brothers. i have problems in my studies too. i feel so helpless i feel so lonely i had nothing i can hold on to. no one is there for me During day time i am still fine. but when its at night.... i start to think alot.... i always feel like crying at every night when i already know crying wont help me solve my problems. And u know what? There are times where i still think of u yet i dunno how to tell u. Today i went to your blog and i know u are down. hey girl cheer up k u are much more stronger than i am so i am sure u are fine. I never forget anything about u but i know we will never be tgt anymore.... hais.... i think i should stop before my tears come out on its own LOL. hao la i sound so emo! dont wan say le hahas. Going to eat my dinner le bye =)