Jason Is Dead

today is the 2 day since we break up and i haven sleep at all...... i feel so dead now nothing is important to me anymore....... since the day i lost u there is nothing that can make me smile like i used to anymore. i fail to make u happy....... i feel so stupid for letting u go. hate myself really....how i wish i could die now but i promise u i wont so at least i can keep this just for u ba. i hope u will always stay happy and i think u will be happier without me ba i miss u lots...... tears just keep coming down. now that u are gone i suddenlly feel so lonely and cold no longer have the warm feeling le. hais now i am dead only body is alive but my soul is dead

dream is always a dream...

hmm i am back to blogging hmm its already going a month since i last saw my baby during this few weeks alot things happen both of us no longer look like a stead i dunno why i am always trying to do things for u but yet i keep making u angry i care for u but maybe i care too much that make u feel like i am overreacting ba and ya so i try to do stupid things like try not to love u so much so i wont make u feel that i never give u freedom so i started becoming more and more cold towards u but i realize this is not working at all and it became worst.... hais i fail man.. but i never give up! i really treasure this relationship and i really love u alot even when i pretend to be cold to u that time i am really suffering i cant well every single night every night i play game watch anime till i cannot take it le then auto sleep de got many times i wanna ask u wat u doing eat le ma or have u sleep well but i stop myself. how stupid i am to do those hurtful things to u..... wth i am thinking man! sometimes i really hate myself for doing things like this i really miss you my dear miss u so much that i dream of u eating with me at a coffee shop its just a little while i jui wake up le but i am still very happy because i can still see u in my dream but its still a dream =( today i ask u this week gonna meet? and u say gonna wait till school reopen... i am sad because i cant get to see u for another week. things is not going well for us and i am really scare that we will break. our old times is gone no more chatting on phone no more long long msg your blog no longer have me too =( this is why i am being over sensitive as time pass by our conversation become lesser and lesser =( i wan to do things that will make u forget about all the unhappy things that is in your mind i wan to make up for every wrong things that i had done so can u pls give me a chance to make up for it? i am scare real scare i dont wanna lose u. i dream of meeting u i wish u are here with me right now but dream is always a dream and wish is just a wish... so i will stop wishing and dreaming instead i will try my best to make my dream and wish come true i will make this relationship a sweet one as long as u dont give up on me =) i love u <3

today whole day only saw a few msg from u.. our relationship like become more and more cold and seem so near yet so far i dont wan to lose u i choose to love u and i will not regret... we were once sweet yet now become like this. I just had a dream in my dream i am with U i was so happy i finally get to see u we were eating together at a coffee shop and u are smiling and when i wake up i was smiling too but i realize its just a dream how i wish all those unhappy things was just a dream too....me love u <3

hmm i am back to blogging hehe =) hmm.... ytd i chat with my baby and realize that i am not a good bf too hehe i am too sensitive le and i am too xiao qi le hahas so ya i think its time for me to grow up ba hehe i dont wan my gf to feel that she is having a very childish and unreasonable bf LOL. ya so hehe i will grow up for sure its a must hahas and i next year really must study hard le cannot keep on slacking like i always do le hais hope i wont always late for school too so i wan to play as much as i can for this holiday cause after this i dont think i will have anytime for me to play le. hmm  dunno wat to say le sia.... hm lets talk about today hmm today i went to aae kia school to wait for him to take his n level things lol wa its so fking hot lor........... hot till so bth so in the end we took cab home llol. nothing to do at my house so me aae kia and lao jie starting playing 3 ppl mahjong lol. ok la nothing to say le hehe bye

hais..... start to feel kind of lonely again other ppl dont trust me nvm why my own family member dont trust me too.... hais life is kind of sad huh? unhappy things just keep going on and on again and again..... i tried not to be negetive but  bad things just keep on happening. maybe this year really not a very good year ba hope bad things  end this year ba.

why i keep hurting those important ppl around me?...... =:::( today i quarrel with my baby and make her sad.... then i made my brother say sorry when i know we both wont say sorry to ppl yet because of me he say sorry to other ppl..... he do so much things for me yet wat i have done for him? and because of this i made my jie sad also.... i really dunno wat to do now le hais............. =:::::( i dunno how to face them le

hais this few days sux........... keep having quarrel with my baby i dunno wat to do also -.- i wan back to old times........ those sweet sweet days we spent toegther. baby u know wat after so many quarrel yet my love for u is still the same... i am sorry for my hot temper and my attitude when i am angry i hope u can understanding and dont blame me k =) baby i really miss u lot and sorry for being so paranoid i got alot of things wana tell u but i just dunno how to say.... i just hope we wont always quarrel and be more loving. Jason Love Die Sophia <3

hmm i am back to blogging hais so sian now playing mahjong with  aae kia lao jie and ah pek hmm i miss my baby alot wor hahas wow my internet is finally back! nice la hehe finally can play games with my baby le hahas hmm baby something like bothering u again le wor.... hope is i think too much ba hehe baby i really love  ttm sia =) and i know u love me ttm too LOL so bhb sia me hahas hmm when can i get to see u again wor? =( this whole week never meet u le leh miss die u le la =( hope to see u soon k hehe =) ok la nothing to say le back to my mahjong time hehe =) bye guys

Hmm i am back to blogging..... Today is a boring day omg sian till going die le.... Exam is coming soon omg hope will pass ba just now i went to yishun to meet my classmate to lend some book to copy notes this few days cannot go out play le =( need go home study omg..... few days never meet my baby le so sian i miss her so much! hope to see her soon actually thought i can get to see her on monday de but she told me she maybe cant meet me cause of school reopen things.... omg miss die her le sia so sian now at lan shop nothing to do lol  a few mins ago was playing games with my baby hehe =) baby i love u so much hehe <3 ok la dunno wat to say le hehe =) bye guys

Ytd is a bad day for me =:::( have a little quarrel with my baby =( when we quarrel i feel so sad as if the whole world is breaking apart..... i wan to smile but i cant i wan to stop my tears but i also cant....... there is nothing i can do..... but finally its over my world is back =) i can smile once again =) But something still seems to bothering my baby =( that make me so sad when i see my baby no mood i become moody too the worst thing is i know my baby is moody yet i cant do anything to make her back to normal..... =( i wan to be a good bf that can do anything just to make her smile everyday but i cant.....even now i am still trying my best to think of a way to make her happy..... wish me lucks huh =) i wan to be the guy my baby love the most.... my baby say there is no forever =( if really no forever then i hope we can last as long as possible ba =) hmm now i am having my class test omg cmi sia and my baby is still sleeping. baby ah baby have a good rest and forget every thing that will make u sad k? hehe love die u le i am sorry for being so paranoid u say if i change i will not be the Jason u know le but i will try not to be so paranoid de k =) Baby told me nothing is bothering her le but baby still make me feel that somthing is bothering her...... its like so cold this few days..... make me feel so insecure hope we can be fine soon i dont wan any quarrels le quarrel make my heart break...... BAby i am sorry for having quarrel with u again and again sorry Baby i wont think negetive le k =) LOVE DIE U <3

hmm back to blogging again hmm boring days -.- now inside class got nothing to do leh having retest now omg only got three trys nia leh omg hope i wont fail ba hahas =) hmm actually very lazy update de but ytd my baby asked me to update so hehe see i so good =) baby today never meet me sia =( but she say she will make up on monday hehe =) so happy hahas. Sian my phone spoil sia the stupid lock cannot unlock leh knn so now using another phone lor. hmm later going cafe 1 eat =). De japanese food there really is very nice, hahas! And its very cheap XP. Hm...got a feeling that class is going to end soon without having IFA class later, if there is no IFA class...would be great, so can go home earlier hahas! But seriously, today in school is seriously like a waste of time, stayed awhile in class just to do de EES retest for like around 2 hours? Which I find it that, I rather have de teacher give us de retest on monday instead of today, so things would be easier... hmm nothing more to say liao bb tc guys =) Love my baby <3

Hmm hi guys i am back to blogging hahas =) hmm ytd ton at aae kia house playing mahjong all night lol hmm ytd so funny ah pek keep doing stupid things that make me and aae kia laugh till like siao LOL =) hmm we went to get some rest at around 4am+ and before we sleep aae kia say we wake up at 6am to train boxing LOL in the end we all sleep till like pig like that sia hahas wake up at 8+..... After that aae kia went to my house  to wait for me to prepare.... prepare hao le we went to arcade for awhile hmm when we reach arcade aae kia went to play his own game then i go play kof after playing 1 game feel so sian so i go play mahjong game at arcade -.- omg that game eat money de lor kns keep losing to the stupid computer lol! Ah pek came to arcade to meet us after meeting him we went to have our breakfast at kfc.... after eating dunno where to go so we went to nearby lan shop to play some computer games..... At lan me and aae kia play one new game call devil may cry wow that game super fun sia but i keep tio stuck at one part of the story in the end play till dulan then never play le lol after playing lan we went to aae kia house again when we reach his house we got nothing to do so we go do some training and play boxing hahas...... boxing so fun sia hahas after boxing we went to meet lao jie and boi boi at aae kia house downstair. after meeting them we went to milk cafe to have some drinks and slack there till 7 like this ba hahas. then we go aae kia house have our dinner while watching show jui go home le hahas. Today my baby reply me super slow sia.... feel so bored! Today my baby like not in a very good mood wor =( i wan my baby to cheer up k hahas =) just now i play puzzle and bowling game with my baby hahas =) so fun. i lost the puzzle game -.- and need to bring my baby go watch movie someday cause i lost hahas bobian ah i not very good at playing puzzle game de cannot blame me..... But i won the bowling game hor wahahahas pro rite? hehe so BHB LOL my baby lost to me so she need to do something for losing so i ask her to be happy can le hehe =) wat a good bf i am wahahahas! OMG more and more bhb liao lol hmm ok la nothing more to say le bb BAby i love die u <3

hmm today is a boring day -.- nothing for my to post also but my baby asked me to update my blog lol =) see i so guai hahas hmm today never go school because i am not feeling well -.- head very pain when i wake up but after resting for a few hours now feeling better le hehe just now went to nearby coffee shop to buy things to eat and after buying suddenly rain -.- omfg so when i reach homee all my body is wet kns -.- hmm nothing much le b all hehe baby i love u!

Hmm today is boi boi birthday! hehe happy birthday to u boi boi =). Today went to school  early in the morning and went home at 12. Around 2 me and aae kia went to yishun to meet lao jir and boi boi. actually plan to go pub de but in the end never go le so all went to my house to slack and drink =).me aae kia and boi boi all drink till see stars le LOL hmm after drinking 7 bottles of beer we went to arcade play game =) just reach home nia but have some quarrel with my mother =( hais i am not a good son =( i fail as a student and son hais..... useless me hmm today my baby never come meet me =( sad! hahas but nvm  cause i know we will meet up soon de hahas =) ok la nothing more to say le bye guys. Baby i love u!

I am sorry... =(

today i did something that make me hated myself lots. today at home very boring and i miss my baby alot wanted to see her as soon as possible. My baby told me that she is going to chong pang with her parent so i went there without telling her.... i know by doing this will make her angry but yet i do it hais dunno wat i thinking hais why cant i do things that will make her happy instead i keep doing things that make her angry? stupid me i hated myself...... hope my baby will forgive me and sorry i lie to u sorry ..... pls dont hate me ok? =(

hmm i am back to blogging hahas hmm today is a boring day hehe today went to yishun =) hmm i go smoke outside northpoint smoke till half way saw police so i ran till like siao LOL but it was fun hahas =) hmm after that i went to meet our lao jie and boi boi under block near the mrt station... it was raining and we got nothing better to do so we started playing cards game well it was so fun we play from 4 to 8 after that we went to eat our dinner after eating i went home le...  when i reach home no one is at home so boring............. err something scary happened at home when i am alone while i was at my living room just beside the door my door bell rang so i went to open the door and no one is outside omg! wtf sia so i faster close the door really scary sia hehe. after that went back to my room and start playing dota after playing i use fb and chat with my baby =) hmm baby suddenly talked about something that make me really down i know u dont mean it but it hurts for sure i really blame myself for showing my temper to u on that day i am sorry like i have said let bygones be bygones. Only think of the happy moments we had and dont let the past bother us anymore k =) lets think of the lovely times ahead of us and let the past be a past hehe <3 baby u are really just too important to me i wan u to feel that u are the happiest girl in the world when u are with me  k =) love die u <3 hmm nothing more to post le hehe nights guys .

today is not a very good day for me and for my baby =( hmm today i never go school in the morning so i went to polyclinic to get myself an mc. after talking mc i went to woodlands mart to find my baby but in the end she say i am stupid -.- wth lor hmm after that when to my house.... starting everything is fine but int the end we quarrel because of one stupid thing. baby i am really very sorry for showing u my temper today and i know my attitude sux.... i will try to make this the first time i show u my temper and i will make it the last time de ok and i really very jealous and very xiao qi de so baby pls have more patience with me k =) really love u lots hope u will love me more and more day by day hahas because my love for u is getting more and more deeper and deeper i really hate the feeling when we quarrel so try not to quarrel le k =)  JASON TAN Love die SOPHIA LIM <3

hi guys i am back =) hmm actually i am very lazy right now but my baby asked me to update de and i just cant say no to her hahas =) hmm today was a good and bad day to me. hmm lets start from the bad thing ba. The bad thing is today have class test omg i totally dunno how to do -.- i dont even understand wtf they are talking about lor kns. hmm and today i promise my baby to study hard from today onwards and i will not break this promise de baby trust me k? i will prove to u i can do it de as long asn u are there for me there is nothing i cant do de hehe =).... hmm now the good thing =) my baby today still seems very busy but i know she care about me and today she told me that she already done the card she wanted to gave me for our first month =) hehe so happy hahas baby i will also give u something  de k =) and the last thing i wan to say for today... Baby i really love u lots hehe <3

today when to school..... school is so boring! then my baby so late then wake up -.- my baby is a pig lor kns. my baby this few days keep watching tv make me feel like she is ignoring me =( but i know my baby still care for me hahas =) love my baby the most le hahas hmm today my brother told me something that make me really angry but i just cant scold him cause i know he is sad and i am not there for him when he needed me cause i am studying =( hmm sorry bro... today my brother promise me not to do those stupid things that will make me angry and sad de le and i trust my brother. brother i love u k when u are sad i will always be there for u de so dont do those stupid things k? i love both my baby and my brother =) i going sleep le night all

Today i went to yishun to meet my zd after meeting him we went to his house to take his dog go grooming hahas
we waited for 2 hours to get the dog groomed after that went back to his house again. hmm lucky day for me cause i seldom got the chance to meet him because he is in army now and he was busy all the time so seldom meet him even if we meet also only for awhile nia. hmm nothing more to say le bye bye...........

Hais...... i am back today is a very boring day.............. feeling very moody now cause this few days cant meet my baby =( really miss her lotz.............. hope can meet her as soon as possible. today when to school then when to yishun meet my brother aaekia then after meeting him i went home le. hmm nothing more to say le.....
bb. Baby i really love u lotz

hmm back to blogging =) actually i very lazy de but bobian my baby keep asking me to blog -.- hahas see i so good to my baby =) hmm today when to school early in the morning so tired..... today my baby eat wrong medicine suddenlly come my school just to fetch me sia omg its a miracle sia hahas but my baby today whole day keep disturb me sia =( keep messing up my hair -.- i think is because my baby today eat too much sweets le so she suddenlly so good come my school find me hahas hmm ok la very tired le hahas bye bye

hi guys i am back hahas hmm today i went swimming with  all my brothers and had alot of fun hahas ty to all my brothers hehe bro i love u all la hahas =).....
hmm but after swimming all like going die le LOL...
ok la i today need to sleep early and after playing whole day very tired le so gonna sleep le night guys tc =)

hmm this is my first time blogging hahas so if i did anything funny pls dont make fun of me ah hahahs.
Today is a very boring day for me because i ytd forget to charge my phone so end up using my friend hp to msg my baby hahas. After school is the most boring part because i went home alone so no1 lend me their phone for me to msg my baby so i slept for the whole journey........
Btw today someone very good hor!!! Forget my birthday sia............ dunno who hor so boxim! hmm ok la i got nothing more to say liao  i go pei my baby chat le bye guys tc^^

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